Love Hurts & Heals
No worries, this was not from an attack from an old flame, haha, it was me after a near drowning and bike accident combo; a spanking wake up call from the universe to slow the f*ck down. I received this message last year in Costa Rica, operating at a mile a minute pace while in the mecca of pura vida (pure/slow life) place. A reminder photo that passionate dedication and spirited drive balances best with mindfulness calm and a no-expectations, go with the flow attitude. Instead, I had brought the baggage of my corporate ingrained, opportunistic ways, one that’s used to forcing square pegs into round holes to get the job done. By not adapting to my surroundings, and letting my ego get ahead of me, I had paid the price of ignorance. These experiences, among many others, mirror my love story with Costa Rica, they have been life-changing learnings that I am now re-constructing from. This poem is about a relationship I had in Costa Rica, that reflects the results of the above ignorance, of love loss and hurt, but thereafter, the healing and hope that a growth mindset can provide.
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A love that haunts
A lust that flaunts
A loss that taunts
My heart still wants.
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A pretend nonchalance
A perplexed response
A forced Renaissance.
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They told me to forget
But I’m not ready yet.
They told me to date
Something’s telling me to wait.
They told me to call
But I’m running into a wall
They told me to move on
You’ve already longed
You’ve already mourned
A love scorned.
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I don’t know what to say
To make it all okay
I feel I’ve done enough
Still lost in the rough.
They told me to give it time
Because later you’ll find
The work you’ve done to heal
Will prepare you for the real deal.
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That “love at first sight”
Those electric nights
Those constructive fights
That turn dark into bright
Will feel heavy and light.
Balance loose and tight
Ready to take flight
It’ll just feel right.
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Is it redemption or resentment
A false comfort or contentment?
The unknowns we’re learning,
Certainty we’re yearning.
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Is it growth or decay
To domestic or stray?
Be wild and free
Let fade by flee
From we to me
Glum from glee
Gone is she
Grateful is he
What will be will be
Just wait and see.
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Together or apart
The end or the start
A path of loneliness
A wanted separateness
A needed selfishness
For needed selflessness
For wanted togetherness.
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Who knows the conclusion
Of this fusion
Just have to wait
It’s never too late
For your future mate
Just believe in fate.
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